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DINGGIN (Davey)

Kahit saan mapunta ikaw ang nakikita

At sa aking paggising ika’y naaalala

Bakit ganito ikaw na lang lagi

Ang laman ng aking isip

 

Ilang beses na bang pinilit kang limutin

O walang magawa ako’y bihag mo pa rin

Bakit ganito hindi na makatakas

Sa rehas ng iyong pusong ubod ng lakas

 

Pakiusap ko sa’yo ako ay dinggin

Ngayong alam ko nang

Di mo na ‘ko mamahalin

Ako’y iyong palayain

At ‘wag nang bibihagin

Nguni’t bakit ganito ika’y mahal pa rin

 

Sa iyong mga ngiti ako pa rin nabibighani

Ang iyong magandang tinig

Tulad pa rin ng dati

Di ba’t nakasundo

Magkaibigan nalang tayo

Nguni’t damdamin ko

‘di mapilit na magbago

 

Di ko alam ang aking gagawin

Ngayong wala ka na sa aking piling

Nguni’t walang magagawa

Pag-ibig mo ang susi

Sa pagkabihag kong ito

Ano ang gagawin ko?

 

BEHIND THOSE EYES (Panky)

 

Your shadow lies a bit too long

Across my path

And it bleeds too much

On blue gray gutters and fireflies

Black and cold into my shoes

Turn my skin blue

A little spider crawling up to weave

Around my heart a moonlight web

 

When you see my eyes

Does your heart receive

These words in mind

When you close your eyes

Do you see me and these dreams i hide

If I could steal one thing

I would grab your hearty and make it mine

Your heart

 

Little thoughts and feelings

Found behind those eyes

I refuse to know the truth

To know the reason why

You and I could never be

I try to build a wall

Try to heal the hurt inside

But it pains me even more to know that

It’s too late

I’m too late

 

Coz I can see your face

Everytime i gaze those skies

Then I cry

Coz it feels so right

But you can never be mine

 

Lips Of An Angel (Hinder)

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

 

*** pagbigyan niyo na ako. ngayon lang ako magpapakamushy at corny at jologs at... oo na... un na!

kung nababasa mo 'to...
POSTED AT 04:48 PM

malalaman mong fan mo ako... ehehe!

mabuhay ka kapag umuulan, tukneneng! ansarap talaga basahin ng mga gawa mo. di pa ko nadalaw sa blog mo eh.

heto pang isa. (of a different writer na)

and yet another one. (another writer)

weird. this time around, the words of others give me comfort. i can't seem to find my own words. for fear that my own would sound stupid and pathetic. yet i try to write. but whatever it is inside just wouldn't flow out with the words.

so there.

artik na walastik!
POSTED AT 06:30 PM

 

saw this article in peyups. nice. touching. made me think about things.

there, there, aya. this is so unbecoming of you.  

read on.

letters to my gurlfrends...
POSTED AT 03:53 PM

gracey...

  hay. ayokong nagkakaganyan ka. ayokong nakikita kang napapraning. ayokong nakikita kang nasasaktan. kung alam ko lang sana ang pwede nating gawin para maayos ang lahat ng 'to, gagawin ko. huwag mong isiping cursed ka. sila ang bobo kasi hindi nila pinahalagahan ang isang gem na tulad mo. i myself am overwhelmed by the great love and generosity you have, you show and you give. and it saddens me that he does not see that. im sorry if i may have pushed you to doing some things. i didnt know how big an effect it will have on you.

  gurl, we are growing up. adults. this is part of life. pain is part of life. but so is strength courage, faith and friends. sabi nga ng ubod ng galing na si cess, love is simply a small part of the big whole. do not let love ruin the goodness of life. alam kong natatakot ka, nasasaktan. pero alam ko rin na you are stronger than this. wiser than this. one day, you will be able to get past the hurt and be a better person because of this. do not, ever, even for a lil while, think that you deserve any of this or that you are forever cursed with this. how else will you be ready for the right one if the wrong ones wont teach you a thing or two?

  smile, gurl. you have us. you have me. and you have Him.

 

hi cess!

  grabe dude! bilib na talaga ako sa talino mo at sa lalim mong mag-isip. ikaw dapat ang nilalapitan ng mga mokong na to kapag nagkakaproblema sa puso at utak eh. tagos lahat ng sinasabi mo. sapul. derecho hanggang buto.

  im trying to draw strength from your words. i need to. i need to get past this hump infront of me. lately i've realized that i'm not mature enough to engage in the relationships of the modern times. or maybe i'm not modern enough. or maybe...

  i know, i know. you told me so.

  how does one do it? how does one love till loving hurts no more? the truth behind this mystery continues to elude me. hurting no more continues to elude me. it's this big black cloud hanging over my head.

  feed me more words. i need them. please.

 

kay!

  providence pa! hehe! grabe, soulmates nga talaga tayo. sabi na eh. kaya gusto kitang makausap. haha!

  naiinggit ako sayo. you seem to have a good grasp of whatever it is that is happening to you. you seem to have answered most of your questions. me? i am swimming in a pool of unanswered questions and doubts. and i have no strength to look for the answers. or should i say, i have no courage...

  bru, we are not cursed. we are young! we have a long, long way to go. sabi mo nga, take it day by day. i agree. i find it less disappointing to do so. 

  three cheers to happiness! and three thousand cheers for happiness to come around that corner anytime soon!

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POSTED AT 07:23 PM

happy first hon...

loveyousomuch...

im ranting. dont mind me.
POSTED AT 03:21 AM

salamat.

salamat dahil nagbalik ka sa buhay ko. 

limang taon. limang taon ang hinintay ko. limang taon kitang hinintay.

hindi ko man pansin, pero hinihintay pala kita. sayo ko lang talaga naramdaman ang ganitong saya.

you make me want to be a better person. i never would have thought that i'd feel as sappy and corny as they portray in the movies. but i do. with you. just you.

you scare me. the things i simultaneously feel overwhelm me. sometimes you leave me breathless. i need constant affirmation that you really are mine. again. but at the same time, i need reaffirmation that you are in for this commitment as much as i am. i feel i love you more than you say you love me. do you really? see, im not even sure. but i still go, head on.

you make me want to cry. im constantly missing you so much. too much. there are times when i cant seem to get a hold of myself. are you too much for me? am i too much for you?

sabi mo nga, di na to hayskul. napaisip tuloy ako. mahal nga ba talaga kita, walang tanong-tanong, o mahal ba kita kasi tira lang to ng malaking pagmamahal ko sayo noon? noon pa man sinabi ko na sayo at sa iba, nasa pedestal ka na. pinaninindigan ko lang ba yun?

pano ba magmahal maturely? ang hindi magpakita ng sobrang emosyon? hindi ko ata kaya sayo yun. ang pag-awayan ang mga maliliit na bagay? para ano pa? hindi ko ata kayang intindihin yun.

how big a love do i have for you? i cant seem to measure it. i dont want to. i cant even show you. it might overwhelm both of us. you'll run for cover. im trying to keep half to myself, for now. we both are not ready for that big a love. i told you, its scary.

marami akong gustong gawin para sayo. kinakaya ko. you are used to a lot of things from her. dont ask that of me. we'll both be frustrated. hayaan mo muna ako sa diskarte ko. tulungan mo ko.

mahal na mahal kita. higit pa sa dati. higit pa sa pinapakita ko. higit pa sa akala kong kaya ko. i love you so much it hurts. honestly. truthfully.

corny. crap. cliches. but sadly, this is the truth. all these pieces of corny crap we call cliches work for me. does it work for you?